Morinng everyone. Something happened to me lastnight. I was again reminded of my past life only this time it hit a nerve. What happened was that I faced the reality of what happened and the speed with which it happened.

I've said before that being sacked can lead to a re-birth; a chance to start again, which is true, but if it happens in any way like the way it happened to me, you don't plan for it or get yourself prepared. It's just wham bam thank you mam and you have to hit the ground running.

I'd like to think I've done things pretty well and I'm not about to deny the happy feelings my new life has brought me, but I will admit to this - there's a void in my life where once there were good friends. I discounted old clients as just that, clients. But that's bollox; some of them were good friends and it upsets me now that all those times together seem to mean nothing now.

The problem now is that I think too much time has passed by and I don't have enough faith in myself to get in touch with any of them. Whatever happened to me didn't directly involve any of them, so why am I being denied access? Well I know the answer to that. I'm not being denied by anyone but myself. So for all the outward happiness and contentment, I'll admit that there is still something missing; old friends.

::UPDATE:: How spooky! No sooner had I just written this than my phone rang - an old client! Isn't life funny sometimes?